hihi..jarak jauh dekat dan menanti.

yeah tepat..:D

jadi abang zayn...i need to get you free..ahaha...gila2...

sebab aku manusia biasa..tapi aku sedang mencuba.

lagi beberapa hari nak balik malaysia..
Ya Allah permudahkan segala urusan ku,
dan juga semua saudara mara seIslam ku..

makin dekat nak balik..
makin pusing kepala ni aku rasa..
sebelum2 ni..
aku rasa macam hari2 aku lalui..
sempurna dan gembira..
even mungkin ada perkara yg tak dapt aku lakukan..
tak sempat nak siapkan..
atau kdg2 lalai sgt buat benda lain..
tapi aku tetap rasa itu hari yg sempurna..
bila tibanya waktu tidur..
aku rasa senang sgt nak lena..
rasa macam semua org puas hati dgn ap yg aku dah buat..

tapi skrg aku tak rase mcm tu pn..
aku rase mcm makin byk org tak puas hati dgn ap yg aku lakukan..
mungkin sebelum ni ad jugak kot..
tapi aku yg tak sensitif..
skrg terlebih sensitif agaknya..
haha

tapi tak best lah cm ni..
aku rasa bersalah..
sebab pada hakikatnya..
agaknya ramai je yg tak suke aku..
atau ap yg aku lakukan...
kadang2 aku rasa dah mcm2 benda baik aku buat kat org..
[bahaya taw perasaan ni...BAJET BAGUS.]
tapi sebenarnya LAGI byk benda tak baik yg aku jugak lakukan..
dalam masa yg sama..
sesungguhnya lidah aku memg tajamm..ZASS
terguris hati org..haih... :'(
sedihnya..aku harap kehadiran aku boleh gembirakan org2 lain..
yg berada disamping aku,,
tapi kalau perkara ni terjadi sebaliknya..
aku mintak maaf..
sebab aku manusia biasa..
aku tak larat nak puaskan hati semua org..
tapi aku cuba...
cuba utk menjaga setiap hati yg ada..
in sya Allah..
bantu aku Ya Allah..:D



[haih sebenarnya aku terfikir..
[most of the entry yg aku tulis..
[adlh cerita sedih!!
[terima kasih kerana membaca kak..:D

alhamdulillah..

mula2 Allah bagi ujian...
tapi lame2 Allah bagi nikmat..
hari2 sebenarnya ada nikmat..
cuma aku yg tak perasan..
fikir sgt masalah...
patut sedar nikmat ber tan2 Allah bagi..
alhamdulillah...

suka aku bace ni...

alhamdulillah...see ini juga satu nikmat...yeehaaaa...

nak pergi bandung...nak jumpa kakak...
nak balik malaysia...jumpa ma n daddy!!!
nakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk..

hehe(^.^,)

sayang..there is another story,, bace taw..!

have something to share with you guys. ramai actually terus tergerak hati bila baca kisah ni. dyorg terus memberanikan diri ckp dekat their love ones. hope you guys do to. enjoy :) 

We have a da'ayea in egypt "a person who spreads da'awa of islam" named amr khaled he said when he was in university he had a friend who had a girl friend and they were loving each other alot.

Then this guy heard some lessons abt relationships b4 marriage and how allah diminish the "baraka" or blessings of the love of the couples after getting married.

Then he decided to tell his girlfriend the following:

You know that i love you and i will always will and because i do and i want this to be with us forever i will just stop seeing you or talking to you until am officially going to propose to u from ur parents

And if you would like to check how am i doing u can call my sister and know my latest news from her and this would be a great chance too for u and my sister to be friends

And the she agreed to do that with him and she waited for him like couple of years until he was ready and he did marry her and had from her 5 kids

And the time where they have 5 kids there live wallah was much stronger than the love they had while being in a relationship

(I know its hard to leave someone and you love him so much but when you leave something for the sake of allah wallah he grants you all what you desire in halal and in a way much beautiful than you had imagined)

story: from a friend of mine :)


i just hope that everything will be in the halal way..:D
thank you for reading..love you:D

lemahnya iman..YA ALLAH kuatkanlah aku untuk jadi khalifah..

sesungguhnya bumi beijing makin panas...
dari sehari ke sehari...
sampai sakit2 kepala panasnya..haha
takpe,,ni mungkin latihan kat dunia...
kat akhirat nanti jauh lebih panas...

YA ALLAH banyaknya dosaku...
ALLAH kuatkan lah diriku untuk beribadat kepadaMu..
dan menjadi khalifah...yg sentiasa memberi manfaat..
untuk agama, bangsa dan negara...

sesungguhnya banyak sgt perkara dalam hati..
bersawang, tergantung dan terapung-apung..
dari saat pertama kau kecewakan aku,,
musnahkan pandangan positif aku terhadap kau..
tapi alhamdulillah..ALLAH baik..
ALLAH tunjuk kat aku..benci kau bukan lah jalan yg betul..
malangnya,,semua ni tak semudah yang aku sangka..
tak sesenang yg aku jangka..
banyak kali aku cuba lontarkan persoalan yg bermain2 kat otak ni..
tapi xleh keluar..lemahnya aku YA ALLAH...
sesungguhnya YA ALLAH bantu lah hambaMu ini..
menghadapi semuanya..

maaf sahabat..
aku sepatutnya bantu kau..
tapi aku tak kuat...
sangat2 lemah..
semoga apa2 yg pernah aku lakukan...
dan akan aku lakukan pada masa akan datang...
memberi 1001 kebaikan untuk kau..
dan tidak sekali-kali menyebabkan kemusnahan kau..
sekiranya umur panjang dan esok kita masih bertemu..
moga2 aku masih mampu untuk membantu kau..
memang aku tak baik...
tapi aku sungguh2 nak berubah jadi lebih baik...
tolong aku..please..
tolong jangan susahkan hati aku,,

sayang...i have something to tell you..

There was once a girl and boy who were together. They Loved each other very much and could do anything for each other. They met each other often and went to the cafe and enjoyed themselves. None of their parents knew about their relationship. Every night they talked together on the phone, every weekend they met each oTher. 

After a whiLe there was a period were the boy began to read a LoT about his religion, Islam. And once he read how haram it was with relationship before marrige (something he never thought of before), he read how much a woman’s worth was in Islam, he read how a man should treat the sisters in Islam, he read how haram it was to go out with a girl alone, usually because Shaytaan always is there as the third company. 

So hE told the girl (who he loved so much) that they had to split up. Not because he wanted to, but because of his deen, their deen. He wanted frist to find himself and strength his Imaan and become more religious. He knew that his life could end at any time, and because of that he wanted to change as quickly as possible, before it was too late. He told the girl about Islam and everything, he ended up the relationship in a good way, not just went out of her life. 

ThE girl who wasn’t practicing at all. She never asked him about Islam, she never thought of Islam even though she belived in Allah Subhanahu wa ta’ala and Muhammad peace be upon him as the last messanger. So after a while she accepeted his choice, and both went their own way.The boy had even thought of marrying her. But he thought that there was no way out for this girl since she never ever thought of changing her life style. 

Several years passed and the boy had graduated and moved to another city. He started to be a real man and he was stronger in his deen. He prayed at least five prayers every day and more, he went to the mosque each week, instead of using time on foolish things, he read the Qur’an. He spend all his time with his beloved family, his religious friends and on his beautiful religion. 

After a while ThE boy decided to get married. And an aunt from the mosque told him that she knew a very practicing Muslimah she thought would fit quite well with him. He prayed and prayed to Allah Subhanahu wa ta’ala for the right girl. He prayed the salat-l-istikhara, the Islamic prayer for guidance and agreed with his parents and the aunt for a meeting with this girl.

HEr aunt, the parents of the girl and the girl came to the boy’s house. All of them was sitting in the living room, the girl used the niqab so he could not see who she was. But they sat there and talked for a long time, and how she wanted it and how she spoke, he was just in love her from the first moment. He loved how she loved Islam and how she wore clothes that pleased Allah Subhanahu wa ta’ala. 

Their fathers went out for a walk and mothers and the aunt inTo the kitchen to fetch some food and something to drink. They sat there, they finally had a moment alone, they talked and talked, and the boy told her that he liked how she was thinking and how she wanted her life style, it was alike as he wanted it too. The girl said the same about the boy. Even under her niqab he could see the smile in her eyes, but the boy tried to lower his gazE. 

FinaLLy after sitting there for a while and talked a lot, the boy asked if he could see her, since they made the choice to bring what they had so far to something more, marriage. The girl took off her niqab and the boy could not keep his tears away from falling down his cheeks.

TherE sat the girl he once loved so much, the girl he had thought of for years and even before this meeting today. How could the girl that he loved so much come back to his life, with just better life style, stronger faith. There sat the girl he had once compared to the past, which he now compared to the future, inshAllah. 

They both sat there with their eyes full of tears, but sudden their parents came in to the livingroom, the girl put on her niqab fast again, and they both told their parents that they had come to a decision.

It is He who created you from a soul. From it He created its mate, so that he might reside with her... (7:189)

bersama kita mengejar cinta ALLAH..:) I LOVE YOU.